Christmas Shopping!

Today, my husband and I woke up early to treat his mother to breakfast. We went to a Mexican restaurant and we ate till we couldn’t stand up! We also went Christmas Shopping and I love Christmas Shopping. I don’t like all of the people stumbling and pushing but I think it is a great time of the year. Now that my sister and my close cousins are older I am having trouble looking for gifts. Most of them are now teenagers and I am debating on just giving them gift cards so they can pick their own presents.

Thanksgiving is also just a day away and again I can’t wait to spend the time with my family. It seems as if everyone is growing up and going their separate way and having this time to get together gets me so excited. Although I do have to say that it brings me much joy to see my family grow up, especially my sister and cousins. I am the oldest (at least 7 years older) from my sister and my cousins so it allows me to watch them grow up and make their own decisions.

Tomorrow I am making my deserts for Thanksgiving Day and Maybe I will post the recipes for the Mini Oreo Cheese Cakes and the Nilla Waffer Pudding which you all may already know because it is extremely easy. Hope you all have a great rest of your day!

May God Bless You!

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Family Time

So I have decided to try to post everyday to see how it goes and if I am able to do it. Lately my anxiety has calmed down. I have been feeling pretty great the past week and I just want share my days with my readers.

Today was a lazy day. It was a little chilly outside and we stayed in and watch movies on our new tv. My husband somehow installed an app called ShowBox and we are now able to watch all kinds of movies. So, we all sat around and started watching movies. It was a great way to just be with my family but in all honesty it was kind of boring. In fact we were all a little bored. Because it was gloomy and chilly outside we did not really have the energy to go out and just have some fun. Either way staying home is ok. I love being with my family. They make me happy and I thank God for them.

I was thinking about Thanks Giving. And it reminded me that tomorrow, the 24th is the tenth year since my grandmother past away. I have learned to not think about it which is probably why I am just remembering now. My grandmother was my best friend. I know I should be sad about her death but honestly I am not sad. Not because I don’t miss her because I do, but because I know she was a wonderful woman who would literally take the cloths off her back to give to those in need. She always guided me to do what’s best. I know God took her away for a beautiful reason and I should not have any negative feelings towards Him and His decision.

Either way I am so excited for Thanksgiving Day. I love spending time with my whole family. We have so much fun and there is so much love. I give thanks to God everyday for my family and of course can’t wait to stuff my face.

ūüôā May God Bless You All!

 

What Have I Been Up To?

For the past two weeks I have been on a great journey to the new chapter in my life. First off, I am grateful to say that I have finally received my degree in Early Childhood Education. I have been in so much conflict with councilors and teachers about my classes and portfolios. Long story short, I finished my degree plan and councilors were telling me that I was missing many classes. It took about a year to prove that I have completed classes and you name it. Finally I have my degree in my hand and no one will ever take it away. I thank God that He was with me throughout this crazy year.

Well I finally got my degree and what happened next? I received a call from a middle school telling me that I have been offered a job for a Special Education Aide. I took the job and within that week I was in the classroom and I am so grateful! I have to admit that middle school was never on my mind when applying for a job but I know God puts things in front of us that he knows will just turn out great. Another thing is Special Education. I have no idea how to go about being in a special education classroom but let me tell you, I love these kids. I know that God put me in this classroom for a reason and I will do my best for these children because everyone deserves a great education and it takes special teachers.

I can not believe where I am today and I thank God for always showing me the beautiful miracles that he can do. I have only worked for three days yet I can already see why I was put in the classroom I am in. God is wonderful and I can’t wait to see what he has in store for me next.

I hope that you all take chances and go out of your comfort zone when you have a chance. You never know what God has in store for you. Take chances! Have faith in God that he will guide you.

May God Bless You All!

To Me, From Me

Dear Me,

I wanted to remind you that your life, whether it is difficult or not, is beautiful. You have worked hard to get to where you are and you should never be ashamed of it nor feel like it does not matter. Strive to do better, always, and you will go so far. Always remember that life is a gift that we need to take care of. Never take anything for granted. Push hate out of your heart and stuff it with love. Don’t be afraid of people’s opinions. You make sure you are heard! Have faith in God and in yourself. You are wonderful and that is all that matters! So smile everyday, look at negatives in a positive way and move on!

Sincerely,

Yourself!

There Is Much More Than Just You And Me

You think man can destroy the planet? What intoxicating vanity. Earth has survived everything in its time. It will certainly survive us. To the earth…a million years is nothing. This planet lives and breathes on a much vaster scale. We can’t imagine its slow and powerful rhythms, and we haven’t got the humility to try. We’ve been residents here for¬†the blink of an eye. If we’re gone tomorrow, the earth will not miss us.

-Michael Crichton

I think this quote is amazing. It reminds me that we are not as in power of what is around us as we think. There is a higher power and we are just here for the ride. God created us and lent us our bodies, lent us this land, this earth. What do you all think?

Ko’olau Mountain Range

While I lived in Hawai’i, I fell in love with the Ko’olau¬† Mountain Range that went from one side of the Island to the other. They are so beautiful, full of big trees and so many green plants. I was born and raised in El Paso¬†and our small dry Franklin Mountains do not compare to the beauty I saw every day on the Island of Oahu. These mountains really helped me see the beauty that God can do. I can not describe to you enough for BIG these mountains are and just how breath taking. And when it rained, the clouds rolled in and dozens of waterfalls just come pouring out. These pictures inspire me to let go of my troubles, worries, and just look at the beauty in God. He made these beautiful mountains, so breath taking, then he can fix¬†our worries. I currently moved back to El Paso and now see the beauty in everything around me. Although it is a dry desert, God made it too, and it is beautiful! So take some time to enjoy your surroundings and realize how small you are and how powerful God is.

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The mountains look small but face to face they are tremendously big and beautiful!
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Here we were driving on the H-3. The bridge is so high up on the mountain just in case of flooding. So high up we are literally driving into the clouds!
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Everyday I would drive by this part of the mountain and take in its beauty!

A Choice

I was lucky growing up. I have wonderful parents who always support me and always pushed me to better my life. As many teenagers, I had a troubled teenage life. It was full of ups and downs and hard blows to my emotions and spirit. Ok lets get real, I had my first love and break up, then my first boyfriend who was an absolute jerk.

Now here are where my choices come in. I had a choice to stay with someone who was destroying me slowly or move on and finish school and begin to grow up. Since I was a teenager, I stayed with the boy. My Choice. Now still in my teens, I fell into dark times, very dark time. My Choice. I was abused and torn down by people who I called my friends. My Choice.

My parents had it with me. I saw it in their faces, the disappointment, the feeling of them losing their daughter to people who said they were my friends, people who would do “anything” for me. My Choice. I went up and down with bad people leading to a bad life. Thank God that my parents still saw something in me. They still loved me enough to get mad at me and try to talk some sense into me. They set rules that I hated, took away things I needed to stay close to my friends with. Thank God they did because these friends had me by everything I had.

I drove my parents crazy, my biggest regret is this boyfriend of mine. Age 16 and I was abused in many ways. Things I had to explain to my parents, things that could have ruined my future. My Choice.

Now this is just the beginning. I have much more to say and elaborate on but I won’t. We all have choices and we all have to think of our futures, of ourselves. It’s not being selfish, it’s about taking care of ourselves, because we are the only ones who can control our lives. Now after a few years of teenage suffering that I have brought to myself, when I finally found God again, is when I got a chance to turn my life around. That was when I had the choice to make my life better, to put all of that behind me.

I have the choice to¬†make my life how I want it, I have complete control. So I found my first love again and we reunited after all my mess ups after all the pain, I finally had the choice to be with someone who respected my, who loved me. My Choice. Now I’m 24 and have someone who loves me, someone who does not abuse me physically and mentally, I have my parents who forgave me and still continue to give me the love they have always shown me.¬†I now have my Bachelors in Early Childhood Education, which I am absolutely proud of.¬†I have a great life. Yes, I get bad anxieties and stressed out but who doesn’t. I am taking control of those anxieties by keeping my mind open with art, by writing out my feelings whether they are good, bad, or¬†don’t make sense. It’s my time to make my life better, it’s my choice.

So the word “Choice” stood out to me on day 3 of Writing 101 because I want to make my life better. I want to take control of my life because I am not that stupid teenager anymore who let people walk all over her, who humiliated herself. I want to be the adult that I want to be. Someone confident , someone who can trust that God is on her side. It’s my choice to live my life how I want it, and Thank God I can with his help.

May God Bless You All!

Things I’ve Learned: Writing 101

I am currently on day two of Writing 101 and my assignment for today is writing about things I have learned along with a list. Along the way I can say that I have learned so much but I have also learned a lot about people on WordPress. I learned about different cultures, I have learned how people take control of their lives and even how to make some delicious treats.

What I have learned from writing my thoughts out for all of my followers to see, is how some situations are not as bad as they seem at the beginning. I am able to learn from myself by expressing my thoughts on WordPress and see the light at the end of the tunnel. Writing out my thoughts have helped me learn to be more truthful to myself and have faith that God will take control of my life and lead me towards something amazing. With my writing I have learned to appreciate my feelings and express myself without having a feeling of being judged. It helps me relax and let go. It brings me closer to God and keeps me afloat.

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So with my assignment comes a list of things that I have learned, and I have decided that with this simple photo, it makes the perfect list of things I have learned since I have joined WordPress to express my thoughts and feelings.

May God Bless You All!

I Write Because…

I write because it helps me express my thoughts and release any stress/anxieties that I may be having. I also write to express my joy and pass along great vibes. I am a religious person and do write about how God has impacted my life but do not expect others to feel the same. I write what I feel and hope to help others through my writing and make some kind of difference.

May God Bless You All!

Who I Am And Why I’m Here

I am Jessica and I am here to voice my thoughts and hopefully inspire readers to do the same. I struggle with anxiety and stress over the smallest things that go on with my everyday life and have found WordPress to help with letting go of my anxieties by writing about them. I also like to think of the positives and hopefully show others who are in the same situation that although things may be stressful to us, we will always overcome. My blog is all about voicing my thoughts and coming up with was to see the negatives as positives. I write publicly to show others that we all have our struggles but are not always as bad as they seem.

I would love to connect with other positive writers and help make a difference through our writings. I hope to accomplish many things in life but through my writing I hope to change the way others think, giving them positive reinforcements and giving them the opportunity to see the good in life. This is my opportunity to write about my life and share my thoughts to anyone who listens.

May God Bless You All!